Forks and faith

Forks and faith

It’s Monday, the start of an amazing, incredible, fruitful week. Right?

I have a busy week ahead, full of play groups, school runs, work, and study. I keep surprising myself by having little moments of bliss, where I realise that I’m actually enjoying my life. It has been so long since that happened I almost didn’t recognise the feeing. Things are going well, I hope I didn’t just jinx myself.

No way. It’s definitely all good, I won’t let it change. I mean, how can anything be bad when I have this little goofball for a son?


I do have one dilemma however. I’m enjoying my work in childcare so much that I’m considering changing my direction at Uni. I don’t know if I should put my writing on pause and focus on getting further in childcare (which I can see being my career, like writing, and not just a job), or if I should keep going the way I’m going and become more educated in childcare second. It’s a huge decision and I’m genuinely torn.

I love both fields equally. I’ve never felt passionate about anything, and now I have two passions. What in the world?

I never had the drive to do anything specific in school. When people asked what I wanted to be when I grew up I said ‘a mum’. Well I’ve succeeded there. I had no follow up plan. Hubby was pretty much always going to be a mechanic (though I know being a pilot would have satisfied him more), I always envied his passion and drive. Now I don’t know what to do with myself.

I feel like a leaf, floating down a river, hoping I’ll wash up on the right bank. But which bank is the right bank? Which side of the fork do I follow?

How do you know where you should land?

10 thoughts on “Forks and faith

  1. In a case where you are figuring out which direction you should go, two things are important. The life you live with a chosen profession and your happiness.

    Rather than weigh down each one, childcare and writing, and thinking about the pros and cons, I think you should judge it based on experience. And by that, what I mean is you talk to people who are in those professions. What you want to know or have an idea about is the kind of life it gives, and how they live it, and if those are the kinds of life you want for yourself.

    That gives you a clear idea of which one to pick, once you know where you are headed.


  2. Hello! I’m happy you’re loving life with your kids and your life in general. I think there’s nothing wrong in pursuing two passions, but I guess you can go for where you feel most fulfilled, not just in an instance or situation. If childcare is exactly what you see yourself doing everyday, then I say go for it! Writing will always be there. You can even merge the two 🙂


  3. Hello there! Despite everything, consider yourself grateful because you knew what your passions are. There are people that are completely clueless on what to do in life. I read a story before about flipping a coin when you’re torn between two things. And when the coin is in the air after you flipped, you’ll start to hope for what you really wants. haha! I don’t know if it works though. 🙂


  4. When confused, I always decide using this guide : do things that move you to love and everything else follows.

    I guess it applies to all. Pursuing child care is such a noble intention. And a brave one as well.

    I wish you all the luck and may you find the answer soonest.


  5. If you can do them both, why not! But if that possibility isn’t within your hands yet, then maybe pick the one that’s most practical and beneficial then wait for the opportunity to merge the 2 someday. Is one of the choices gonna save/bring you more money, more time w/ your kids, or something else? Since you like both passions equally maybe you can look at them objectively next 🙂


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